Echoes, a Oniisama E fanfiction

This is Rei's diary..........................

Melancoly in Ink....

I love the blackness of the ink. Only it can reflect, in the words I put on the paper, all the dead shadows of my heart, without even reading them.

I can drown in a stain as in an endless void. The thoughts I wrote cover this page with little graveyards, where they stray among the letters erected like tombstones.

Now that I have begun to pervert you with my pen, little diary, I think I will never stop. Even when I will have bury you under my pain, I will draw it on the walls, on the trees, on the sky, and the world will become as dark and sad as I am.

Fukiko

Fukiko


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Fukiko

If only I could erase you from my life as simply as I cross out your name on this piece of paper...

These words which you'll never see may surprise you, oneesama, but I need to write this hatred I feel for you.

You that I adore.

I thought I knew all your secrets, I thought you'll let me spend my whole life in your arms... and I thought I existed for you.

I've never been but a small, see-through, fragile toy of glass. You took me to be the only one who could destroy me.

Yes, you break me, and the cruel thing is that you refused to be my death. The fragments of my heart had torn me through and through, leaving nothing of me but sufferings.

Three years. Already three years of agony, alone, abandoned, without even being able to escape the chains that bound us.

Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko Fukiko ...

I'll strike your name as long as necessary to make sure I'll kill you, oneesama. This quill is my dagger, and when you'll be annihilated, I'll no longer have a reason to live...

I'll kill you, I'll kill you.

I'll hit your corpse of ink until it becomes an unformed, ugly, dark bulk nobody would recognize.

I'll kill you, I'll kill you.

To dry up my tears, to forget the pain.

I'll kill you.

Because I love you.

Tomorrow I'll rip this page up.